-Possible Penguin for Life- In my current situation it’s likely I will become a penguin for life. Would you like me to explain my problem? Well I’m going to anyway so you don’t have a choice quite frankly! I used to be a semi professional dancer, 12 years of constant muscle straining exercise, contorting my body into different positions just to impress a dozen judges on the edge of the dance floor. I progressed through the rankings and made it to championship level at one point, but I then went up an age group so lost my championship status. In 2007 I became a British champion, winning 3 consecutive titles in one weekend and earning myself 3 massive trophies! Last June I went to my last ever dance festival as a semi professional dancer, I did quite well to say after every round I did I was practically dying on the floor because I couldn’t breathe, but I still made it through to come home with 2 trophies, and a lot of retiring presents! Do you know what the worst thing was? My mum had sold my costume before I’d even worn it myself! So before I knew it, she was forcing me to take it off after I’d just finished dancing in it and giving it to another girl at the dance school! So unfair! So that’s a little insight into my life as a dancer…only a little though since I did compete for 12 years but there you go. Since I retired in June I've been having a lot of withdrawal symptoms and been wanting to go back so much but I'm actually not allowed to! That’s because I’ve become a dedicated penguin. Since I gave up I have had increasingly more painful problems with my hips and knees, at one point I couldn't even walk! Been doctors and that and been referred to a hip surgeon about it all because apparently it’s that bad. Because I've been struggling to walk, I have now resulted in waddling like a penguin because my hips are that painful I have no choice but to walk like that, so the names I get called now are: - Happy feet (because that's a penguin in a movie) - Penguin (because I waddle like one) - Cripple (simply because they think it's funny) - rude comments about me needing the toilet Could be stuck like this for some time so I may as well take the names on the chin and laugh about my whole situation since it seems it's never going to get any better, according to several doctors/surgeons anyway. Did you know? I was apparently likely to have arthritis by the time I was 20? Great things to look forward to in my life don't I!
-Music- It's funny how songs you listen to can effect how your mood lifts or falls. Like, when your in a good mood you want to listen to upbeat sort of bouncy music to keep your mood high but when your moods low and you feel fed up you choose to listen to slow, sad music...but does it really make sense? I mean, wouldn't it make more sense to listen to upbeat music when your sad so it could lift your mood instead of wollowing and making yourself feel worse. Well obviously your not going to listen to slow music when your happy becasue that just doesn't make sense but when your sad it does make sense to listen to happy music. Yeah...as you can probably tell I'm in a crap mood so I thought i'd post this since I'm listening to sad music. Blaaahhhhhhh.
(..You can never take back the words you've said. They will always be forever engraved into that persons mind..)
-Car Insurance- What's with these car insurance prices at the moment!? I mean come on! Some people I know are getting quoted £5000 maybe even £7000 for a car purely because they're young. The companies shouldn't discriminate young people like that, I know we aren't exactly portrayed very well in the media, what with gangs of youths attacking people or unprovoked attack, but still! They should give us a fair deal on our insurance, it's not like were going to go round crashing and running people over on purpose is it!? It's so annoying! My dad has just bought a brand new 2012 car, and his insurance is £250 a year...a year!! It would cost me that in a month! What's the deal with that!? It's like companies think they can scam money out of young people as a sort of payback for what some troubled youths have done over the years. It's so unfair on the majority of young people that actually want to drive properly and actually want to get places for their own benefit, not to go on a rampage like on grand theft auto and drive down the pavement purposely running people over...were not all bad you know!
-Jealousy- Jealousy brings out the worst in everyone. Whether it be towards couples, girls with an exceptionally good figure, or if your a guy...jealous of one guy getting all the girls and you hardly get any attention. It could be anything, but it's still a horrible feeling. I think the only way to overcome the feelings of jealousy is to try and tell yourself that they wouldn't dream of doing anything to you, that a person to hurt you like that doesn't deserve to have a person they call their own. It's really hard to let go of these feelings but once you do, everything will seem so much better, no more paranoia or being scared that your going to lose them. Have faith in what they say to you...it'll be okay.
(..Jealousy is nothing more than the fear of abandonment..)
-Trust-
They say trust is the basis of a relationship...and without it, being together wouldn't last. But what would you do if your trust was betrayed?
Trust, in a practical sense, means that you place confidence in someone to be honest with you, faithful to you, keep promises, vows and confidences and not abandon you. Here are some factors to consider about trust. Trusting another person requires a realistic perspective about people and an expectation of failure. Trust needs to be combined with a willingness to forgive and grows best in an environment of acceptance and love. There’s no magic machine, you don’t put in a pound and out drops a can of trust — trust grows over time. People are complex, broken beings therefore, previous hurts, fears or losses can impede their determination to trust or be truthful in a relationship. But, people have the capacity and the ability to change and to grow in trust and truthfulness. You can rebuild trust in broken relationships when you make a choice to do so, but it takes time, a lot of effort..and fighting for the person you want to be with.
A quote from the website 'Physcology Today':
"Trust is at the core of all meaningful relationships. Without trust there can be no giving, no bonding, no risk-taking. To trust a partner again, betrayal must be acknowledged. The wrongdoer must admit that he or she has inflicted a deep hurt, and the victim must look at what he or she could have done to make things different. Seeking and accepting forgiveness is the first step toward rebuilding a more secure relationship. In new relationships, at the appropriate time, discussion of such a past situation can alert a caring partner to the other's sensitivities and vulnerabilities. We can ask, "Can I, and do I, want to be with this person? Will I be honest about my thoughts and feelings? Will I take the risk to further this relationship, knowing I cannot control the other? What would I do if my partner chose to, once again, be dishonest with me?" Hurt does not heal instantly, but it can calm us to look into ourselves and see our real choices."
-Letting Go- At a point in everyone's life, there comes a time when you have to let someone go. Whether it means letting a loved one pass on, seeing your child all grown up and realising there not your baby any more, or moving out of the parents house for the first time and realising you're parents are not going to be there to help you any more. It's going to happen eventually so I think that's what we all need to be prepared for. Sure it will be hard, especially when grieving about a loved one, but just know that they will always be looking over you, every single day, guiding you through the rest of your life with ease and understanding. It makes everything seem a whole lot easier when you know that no matter what they'll always be with you...day in day out, always by your side...
-From a Girls Perspective- Okay, so I'm going to talk boys here...so this could get ugly. Every girl in the world wants that one guy who makes them feel like you are the only girl for them, that hugs you and instantly everything seems so much better, the feeling of safety when your around them, the constant smile that creeps up on your face when they text or you see them walking towards you with a glint in their eye. You know that feeling when you just feel complete, that nothing could ever go wrong in your life again? I think that is the best feeling in the world. Yet, boys are a species I'm still failing to understand, like why they do the things they do to impress you, why the things happen that hurt you, why they run away from the problems when it's really just making them worse...then it makes you think a little...are they really worth your tears? I mean does anybody really know what love is? Is it a mix of things or just one thing that makes that word meaningful? Nobody really knows...yet every person at one point has said 'I love you' to at least one important person in their life. The motto I stick to is "If it's worth fighting for...fight until you can fight no more." ^That works for me, but you might be different...but as long as that one person makes you happy, whether it be male or female, they're worth it...keep fighting! And if they don't realise how hard your trying to make it work...then maybe it's not worth the fight any more...maybe it's time to find someone who's worth it.
-Finding Yourself- How do you begin to find yourself? To find out who you are and what you are put on this earth to do?...How does anyone know for sure how their life is going to turn out? Not everyone is gifted enough to see the future, very few are. I've always wondered how individuals would find their feet and figure out who they really are. I've come to discover that some people choose to find themselves through alcohol and holidays in the sun, some choose to delve into books and only look up to acknowledge those who matter the most, where-as some people choose to throw themselves straight into the working world. They all seem to work for everyone...but how do you choose which one is right for you? How do you decipher which will bring out the best in you? Does anybody really know how to do it? Maybe we just fall into place and go with what comes along, living life one day at a time, and making it through the trials and tribulations that are thrown at us. There seem to be a lot of unanswered questions here...but I'm not sure there is anyone that is able to give the right answer. Only we know for sure who we want to be...it's our future, our destiny and our ambitions. It's up to us to discover them and thrive from the success that awaits us all! |
